There will be no more negative thinking, or words.

No more venting or fuming. Only smiling and gratitude for lessons.

And there are so many, that’s what yesterday, a difficult day and only ’cause I made it so, taught me.

Today is different. Today is gratitude, today is love for this room and me in it — YES, mySELF — and everyone in my story.

Frustrated that I let my mood and thinking go to certain places, but now understanding that is part of it. The learning. The daily education of life.

No more self-doubt, or wondering what if it doesn’t happen.

I don’t speak that language anymore. At all. Completely forgotten.

There are gems in EVERYTHING.

EVERYWHERE.

Manifesting a new character, new mind, reality, me in this tangible and intangible state. However it happens, it will happen.

Making something occur, not by force but belief. Belief in SELF, belief in the Now, I am here in this chair for a reason it will only elevate, this precede and way of thinking.

Why do I let myself go to those dark places? No idea, but no more. No more. I can’t afford it and I won’t accept it.

DONE.

This feels amazing, I don’t know how to put it into any sense of sentences. I am free.

FREED.

By SELF.