Self Note

(07:55, clock-in)

You wake and promise yourself that something will be different about today, you’ll get loads and load done, accomplish what you’ve not in the past few days, something new or a contribution to some old project, something. Day’s end and the possibility of that not materializing frightens you, so you don’t attempt as heartily. Why? Why did you let this into your thinking? How did you let that thought, then idea, dissolve into a fantasy? The next day you again make the vow, inward voicing of conviction, saying this thought can be made into a lively and functional, moldable idea. How. By experience. You will craft and compose the experience itself, not let it stray in any one way, even minutely. Every person you interact with today, all people, will be meant for getting you There, to your There, so in the future when you promise yourself something you know you’ll keep it.

You collect first thing, sitting in the coffee shop before work. Inward demands, lectures and notes in your notebook, or journal. A prime and valuable meditation for your Personhood’s composition. In your sitting, you wonder, how do I prevent anything from interfering with my pursuits and my aims for what I want from day? Frankly, you can’t. Rather, you should embrace the momentum of what seeks to obstruct, what you have before allow do dilute and damage your direction. Everything this morning is for you, you realize…