Not sure what I want to do with the day.

Was going to go to Novato, but deciding against. Want to get on phone, write emails and letters to people…. Be more communicative. Different approaches today, ones contrasting the usual pattern and repetition, anything template.

Will be on the phone, all day. But that doesn’t enliven me. So what then, next…. What’s the alternate plan. Write letters…. I’m overthinking. Settle into the morning, I tell myself. See yourself doing something. I do. Going over notes. Will get out of office, tomorrow. Make day more about self than list of products and services. What I was and am in the classroom bring to the phone calls, to the meetings, to this screen.

Hear people laughing a few rows behind me. That’s the disposition I need have, not some excessively analytical loom. 8:35 now, and work… work…. Thinking maybe I should get out from behind the desk. No. Follow through with the plan. Stay here. Make calls. Send emails. Funny when you notice yourself overthinking something, or everything in your story, work, whatever you’re doing.

Notes…

Take more notes…

Address them to self.

To you…

You won’t overthink anything, anymore. Starting with today in this sitting, in this action, movement. Have as many conversations as possible. Stay alive and divinely energized. You wish you had more time, that you woke earlier but you didn’t. You’re here now. You can see yourself doing it, literally in your skin cells…